under pressure

so i have a problem.

it has suddenly become apparent to me that i cannot do anything that needs to be done unless under the pressure of extreme procrastination. i have lost all motivation... to do anything. let's call it movo. i've lost my movo. and i am really interested in getting it back, but obviously it is just going to have to wait until i do a thousand other useless things first. for example, i am taking two english classes this semester. both recquire that i read multiple books, which is something i have definitely been struggling with. i mean who has time to just sit and read. i know i certainly don't, unless of course, for some ridiculous reason i get involved in reading twilight. AGAIN. then suddenly i have hours and days to just relax and dream of edward cullen. and now here i am, two previously read books in, and absolutely no where closer to passing any of my classes.

ugghh when did i become such a slacker?

i do have to say that it has progressively gotten worse. the more time i spend in school the lazier i get. that really should be my incentive for getting out faster, but instead i proooooocrastinated. i'll be taking another year. it's wierd because i like school, i like learning, i don't really mind doing the work, annnnnd i get frustrated and really sick when i leave things to the last minute.but that hasn't stopped me and somehow i always manage to scrape by. mom and dad should be so proud.

here it is, sunday, another weekend completely wasted and nothing to show for it, except a cozy dent in my bed from where i have been laying all weekend, and a feeling of lust after a sexy vampire. i have a whole mess of sewing to do, including fixing the effing machine first, but of course it's just going to have to wait. my movo is still MIA, and mr. cullen awaits...